Exhausted

I am exhausted.  Really, it is for several different reasons.  Just being a mom of five kids, no matter how much I adore them, is very tiring.  The stress I go through on a daily basis with Jim is enough to drive anyone crazy.  Just waiting and wondering if he is going to make it to school without having a meltdown, if he will go to karate, if he will come home yelling at us, if he will have a successful day at school.  Always being on guard, never being able to relax.  It gets very stressful.

Then there are the health issues going on with Isaac.  Last spring he got really sick, and even after surgery, it didn't get better.  End of summer comes and he started getting green drainage from his eyes so I take him to another doctor who wants to redo his blood tests and do the CF test the previous doctor suggested.

A couple of weeks ago we did the CF test and did all the blood testing.  Today we went in and the CF test was negative and the blood testing was fine, except for one area of the blood count, the eosinophils.  It was elevated.  It was elevated before, and elevated more now.  Since Isaac's immune system looks fine, and he has tested negative for all of the allergins, the doctor thinks it could be a parasite!  A what? That doesn't sound good.  I guess it is more common than we think, but it still doesn't make me relax.  He is starting today on a treatment for it that will last 10 days.  In a month we will redo his blood tests.  If that number has gone down then we will know we figured out that part, if it doesn't we will have to look into more possibilities.  However, a parasite does not account for the sinus drainage he is having.  We may end up doing another CT scan.

JJ has started basketball now and last night was his first practice.  I think that was by far the most boring thing I have ever sat through!  Good thing he is so cute and tries so hard.  Hopefully his team will do better this week than they did last week, when they got all of one point.  It was sweet though, the point came in a last minute penalty free throw and all the parents, from both teams, stood up and cheered.  That is how a recreational basketball league should be.

Next week starts Michelle's volleyball practice.  Two hours a week for a 30 minute game.  As long as she learns something I don't care.  She really wants to try out for and get on the volleyball team at school next year.  But gosh, one more thing to add to my week.

I always dread fall and spring because of all the activities, but then welcome them at the same time.    It makes the evenings go by fast, keeps the kids from getting bored, limits the fights.  But just absolutely exhausts me.  One day though I know, I will miss these days.  My babies will be grown and gone.  I will wish that we had one more day to run around like crazy and be too busy.

A friend just posted this on FB.  It is so true and so meaningful right now.