Pregnancy ups and downs

So far we have only told a handful of people, the kids and most of the family not being part of them. after three early pregnancy losses I am a bit superstitious.  But oh I still feel like crap. Super sick. Wondering when it will improve. I will be 9 weeks tomorrow.  That means 4 more weeks of first trimester. The weeks are honestly flying by. I seem to feel sicker more this pregnancy than ever before, but maybe not. Every pregnancy has seemed to get worse.  If I don't eat I feel sick. Immediately after eating I feel better, but once the food settles I start to feel stuffed which makes me, once again feel sick. It is a never ending cycle.

Besides feeling sick I am starting to get excited. I can't believe I am already 9 weeks. I met with the midwife I am going to use this time. I am very sad that it is not the one I had before. I loved Sarah but she is pregnant herself which means she won't be delivering babies next June. So instead of Sarah, I am using Gina, the midwife Sarah is using.  I met her a couple of weeks ago and I really like her.  I am very excited about it.

I plan on doing just about everything the way I did before. Home birth, but this time I would like to do the water birth. I plan on renting a birthing tub vs trying to do it in my tub. Also, this time we are going to have the "surprise" when the baby is born.  We have always found out if we are having a boy or girl, I can't wait for that moment, after nine months, when I get to look and see if we are going to have four boys or three of each.

The other bummer is that my birth photographer is also pregnant, due about the same time I am. I am on the fence about whether or not I will hire someone else.  With Jessica I was determined because I had no pics of John and I. We will see this time.

Last week I had an early ultrasound done. We wanted to make sure the baby was viable and that there was only one. I was thrilled that the baby was measuring right on track and had a good strong heartbeat of 168 bpm. The best part, is that there was just one!  I won't have another scan until around 20 weeks.

As for what sex I think this baby is?  I am going with another little girl.

Big news!

10/24/12

I am the woman many women hate.  For any of those who reads this, I apologize in advance.  I have a lot of friends who have problems getting pregnant, I have never been one of them.  After two years of being on various types of birth control, and being very careful, timing was a little bit off last month and my cycle ended up becoming very late this month.

Being late is not new for me.  Sometimes my body has a mind of its' own so at first I was not worried about it.  Then I started feeling like crap.  Tired all the time, nauseous.  Finally when I was a week late, and there was no sign of Aunt Flo, I told James that I thought I might be pregnant.  I think he was more in denial than I was.  I told him that I had not tested since I already had an appointment for a physical on Wednesday, I would just have them test me then.  Wednesday came, they gave me a test, and I was not surprised by the results.

However, I was a little bummed.  I fully believe that God is in control.  If he did not want me to be pregnant I wouldn't be.  If he does not want me to have this baby I will miscarry.  If he has a plan for this baby I am the one who has been commissioned with seeing that the plan is carried out.  I am okay with that.  However, the big bummer was the weekend "sleep over" James and I were having in Dallas for his brother's wedding.  Because I was pregnant I knew I would be very tired early that night, and I couldn't drink!  But I made it still till midnight, so I was proud of myself.  I did feel awful however and was more than ready to go to bed when it was time.

So begins a new phase in life and 8 months of anticipation.